Job blues...

So here is my dilemma, that I keep getting faced with and I can't keep turning the other way. My job - wonderful, wonderful, soul sucking, making me a bitter old mean ass teacher job. Now in the beginning I loved being a teacher, I understood that it wasn't great money let alone good money; it's simply money. I was content with this because I truly loved what I was doing, had summers off, pretty good benefits, retirement, all the fantastic stable things we all look for in a career. Yes, I will admit, there have always been days when I questioned my sanity because the piece of shit kids I teach, but I reminded myself daily that it is the area I'm teaching in - buy my time where I'm at and then move to another district that isn't so country. It was a long term plan I was more that happy to deal with - until now.

I have a daughter, a family! I can't be one of those people who go to work and bring it home, Khloe deserves a mom who is 100% there when she's physically there. This is important especially with my husband being in sales and being on for work practically 24/7 (I hate that phrase). Then, when I think further down the line, to Khloe starting preschool - I wont be able to take her and see her off, it will be my first day of school as well. This will happen over and over again, kindergarten, field trips, etc.

Now lets go back to what has made all this come to a head making me feel that I have to get out before I'm too vested. My salary has been cut, all of us lovely hard working teachers are losing our large income. Not only that, but they have cut our health care - meds are going up, vision is completely gone, dental narrowed, and more money will be coming out of my check to pay for having less health care coverage.

So, although it isn't necessary, Kevin keeps telling me I don't have to, I feel like I have to take on coaching cheer again to make up for the lost income. But don't get the wrong idea, the pay as coach doesn't make up what I'm losing.

Getting a different job isn't a must, neither is the coaching, but I can't not pull my weight income wise. My husband does a great job, and I'm sorry, but I love the disposable income that we have had. It's nice to give Khloe things that she doesn't need, it's nice to give my husband and I things we don't need. It's those things that make working so hard worth the sweat.

So until I can find a job making what I was previously, I will be coaching cheer, grading papers all night long, and slowly becoming that bitter teacher we all remember in school.

Maybe my feelings will change, but as for now I'm on the job hunt!
Wish me luck...